Not like anyone's gonna listen, but i need to get this out. So i'm basically banned from my best friend's house for awhile because his mom thinks we hang out too much and i pull him into my drama. Then my other best friend won't talk to me, even though i've made countless efforts to talk to her. And another friend of mine who i just lost tonight because i tried telling her my problems and how i was feeling and she was just a complete bitch about it and made me feel worse. Not to mention the guy who i've been in love with for the past year now is going into the army next month and i haven't talked to him in nearly 6 months because his best wants us to have nothing to do with each other. And then, this other guy that i like who i was doing stuff with at school in the gym now won't talk to me because he feels extremely guilty about the stuff we did, and i'm now getting a harassment form filed against me at school saying that i harassed him. Even tough he told the school i didn't, so he's pissed about that and is refusing to talk to me. So i've decided to leave the school i'm going to and have now decided to go to online school. Oh to make matters worse, the friend who was being a complete bitch to me about my problems is staying at the guy i did stuff with's house because she's friends with the foreign exchange student who lives there. Oh and she ended up telling me that the two guys i have feelings for don't like me and have no interest in me and only used me and i should just give up. I very badly want to kill myself right now, but i don't think i could ever go through with that. At the moment i honestly don't know what i'll end up doing, but i don't think it'll be good.